Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Sausage Digits & Rat Tails

I am about 32-33 weeks now and am feeling very pregnant. As of this weekend, I had to stop wearing my wedding rings because my fingers are swollen and are starting to resemble meaty little sausages (the breakfast link variety). I'm kinda sad about that. I am trying to drink more water over the course of the day, which is supposed to help. I suppose people will think that I'm a single pregnant mom. Oh well.

Besides that, I am feeling a bit frustrated about my role as mom and wife these days. Yesterday I hit a breaking point when I found out I would have to cancel a hair appointment I had been looking forward to for weeks. The problem is really two-fold: 1) finding a Portland stylist who knows how to cut Asian hair, and 2) working around hubs and ESK's schedule.

It's been awhile since I got my haircut (although nothing like Yellowinter's 1.5 years!) and my hair is starting to look like something out of a bad Whitesnake video or something -- shaggy and series of rat tails at the ends. Living in one of the whitest cities in the country means that it has been hard to find a stylist who has much experience with Asian clients. My last two experiences here in Portland have been lackluster to say the least.

I tell myself it doesn't really matter since I always wear my hair in a ponytail anyway. But every now and then, it would be nice to wear it down. My frustration is compounded by the fact that I don't really like how I look these days -- swollen and waddling. Yeah yeah yeah... pregnant women glow, they're cute, etc. etc..... Also, I know when baby #2 arrives, scheduling issues aren't going to get any better. These scheduling problems made me realize just how much my life revolves around taking care of my daughter and husband and how my priorities can easily get lost in that mix.

Just feeling sorry for myself I guess. Someone stop me from getting sucked into this spiraling vortex of self-pity! Ack!

4 comments:

RBK said...

breakfast link digits, huh? just think- only a couple more months of that. the scheduling issues, however, will persist. i love going to get my hair cut (just twice a year) because it means "me-time." aren't there alot of asians in portland? you do have an HMart, after all.

jwk said...

you would think there would be more experienced stylists. but i also think it has to do with it being Portland and women here being so low-key. haircuts are one thing that i'm kinda picky about. not make-up, not clothes, but hair. probably because, like you, i only get appointments twice a year!

vivian said...

haha!! you are not spiraling!!! it just sucks that you have to give up your haircut. i wish i could help.. i'll ask my friend who has a fiance out there. though i'm sure you've heard of them, but references are key with this sort of thing.

as for your pregnancy woes.. i feel like there are pregnant ppl everywhere and it is not making me want to have kids. everrr!!!! i hear all about the joys of parenthood, but all that is like white noise, you still just want to run out of the room. lol!

vivian said...

ok. try a salon called nyla.. there's a girl named yuki who's supposed to be good!